I am liking this song a lot right now

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I don't fit

Today was the infamous dancesport championships at BYU, for those of you who don't know I participated in competitive ballroom dance from grade until I left on my mission. That was a long time and a big chunk of my life. I went with my good friend lance, he was on the high school team with me so we have seen our share 4th of competitions. When we got there we sat with lance's buddies on the UVU ballroom team (he still dances with UVU) he did his best to help me fit in, but let's face it, i'm not at practice with these people every day like he is, i'm not always in the hallways at the school to see them so I didn't really fit in with any of them. I saw Trevor and Alissa, they are good friends but they are married so they aren't really "friends" anymore, they are more like grown up associations. I started thinking about it more and more and I just don't fit anywhere. I had to quit dance because I am to big. I had to quit swimming because I'm to slow, and there aren't any waterpolo teams for me to play on, so that is out of the picture as well. I go to school and I don't know anyone, and no one really cares that I'm there, and then I go to work where I kind of have friends but I'm still the new kid so I don't feel like a part of the group there. So where does that land me most nights? At home, on my couch, watching t.v. and looking at Facebook. In fact, if I were to describe to you my life it would be in three words, Home, School, and Work. I wish I could say I had friends, or I had a social life, but I would be lying to you if I did. Like I said, I just don't fit anywhere anymore. That's why I miss high school, was it a pain sometimes? Yes but at least I had people that cared about me, people I cared about, people who I knew, things to look forward to, and teams to participate on.

Oh what I wouldn't give to just fit in somewhere again.

Theme songs

if my life had a sound track this would be the opening credits, and this would be another frequent song. Enjoy them, they're great, and they describe my dreams, and wishes pretty well.

Cool poem

. . . Some Lines Scrawled on the Door of Vagabond's House . . .

West of the sunset stands my house,

There . . and east of the dawn;

North to the Arctic runs my yard;

South to the Pole, my lawn;

Seven seas are to sail my ships

To the ends of the earth . . . beyond;

Drifter's gold is for me to spend -

For I am a vagabond.

Fabulous cities are mine to loot;

Queens of the earth to wed;

Fruits of the world are mine to eat;

The couch of a king, my bed;

All that I see is mine to keep;

Foolish the fancy seems,

But I am rich with the wealth of Sight,

The coin of the realm of dreams . . .

-Don Blanding

JUST SAYIN

i've got a friend

Her name is the miss
I have been down lately and a little shaky in the way i feel about things i have lived my whole life. The miss knew that, and has helped me out, she makes me realize how awesome things are, and how important the little things are in my life, like the sky, in her words, it's jesus' finger painting canvas. She is positive, and that is a good thing to be in the world today. So thank you Miss for being such a good friend and caring about how an old fart like me is doing. I appreciate it, you are the best!

up to date

which is what this blog will now be.

Well some new stuff is goin down. I work at the American Fork Fittness Center, that's right the AFFC, before ya'll start calling me a traiter don't worry, my heart will always be with the Pleasant Grove memorial swimming pool!!! I like it at AF though, it's pretty chill, and the people there are pretty nice now that we know one another.

I have decided i want to join the Master's swim league for reals, I love swimming, it is really the only place where i feel peace, and quiet. it's also the only place where my insane mind slows down for a minute and just relaxes.

School is going pretty well, i was asked to meet with my advisement counselor for my major, and it was pretty tight because he helped me choose which emphasis i should follow. Unfortunately for me, the one that i realized i must choose involves a crazier class load, because it is more business oriented.

Do i miss Faculty support? not one single microscopic bit i just thought i would throw that out there while it is on my mind, you see, faculty support was my old job. I miss the people, correction, i miss Carrie and Meredith, the rest of the cool people left a while ago.

Best friends right now, in no particular order:

the miss

jameson

lance

yep these people are pretty awesome, if you don't know them maybe you should get to know them because for the most part, they are pretty good friends to have.

I miss my sister Amy, she is in hawaii, and that is ok minus the fact that she was my catylist for a social life, without her around i pretty much don't have one. I like my job now so it's not as big a deal as it was once upon a time, but i would still dig meeting some people once in a while.

No chacos!!! are you serious?? do you not realize that they enhance life, and performance? they would never restrict performance or hinder progress!! (inside feelings)

Well world this is the newest splatter of my thoughts.

life is a highway

Things are going pretty well, i don't have a lot to say but i figure i should still get around to writing once in a while.

This last weekend lance, jameson, and i went to my cabin, it was a blast. we went up ate some cheese doodles, had brautwurst, and potatoes for dinner; became inspired by watching august rush and then went to bed after our caffeine high diminished a little bit. in the morning we had a very cholesterol free breakfast of eggs, bacon, and hash browns. upon finishing it came time to leave, so we drove home and finished up our epic trip.

The cougars won!! i went to the game! 7th row, it was awesome, i even lost my voice because i was yelling so much. They looked great, they looked like the old team was back or at least they looked much better than before.

My swim class, it's a light in the dark tunnel of college, i LOVE it.

ski season is coming, there is snow on the top of timp sometimes, i'm so so so so so so happy about that.

it's funny because people tend to bug me about dating, and i tend to make it seem like i don't want to. but in reality i just don't know anyone at all that i would ask on a date, like literally, i don't know anyone. but that subject is probably for a different post some later day.

I hope this week is good, all the high schoolers get fall break, i don't, i get to go to class :(