feels like i got punched, or kicked, or shot. mixed with a side of nausea slash stomach cramps. This happens sometimes, when i stress out, and when i get worried.
I'm used to it, but none the less it makes me feel terrible.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
i've had a lot on my mind today
I know I know, you are probably wondering why i am posting for the 3rd time today. But I've realized today that i'm a very inquisitive person. I wonder a lot, I can't think of a time in my life when I haven't had at least one question on my mind. I realize that to some people this might be obnoxious. And to those people, I apologize. I think that people have taken my questioning to mean that I don't trust them, or that I am to nosey. I'm sorry I'll try to fix the problem, I've just found that especially when I am bored I like to ask questions. I'm actually very trusting of people, I just think that i come across as untrusting because of my stupid habit. so....... sorry team, i hope you'll be patient with me while I work towards a change. And if i've offended any of you, i'm sorry, just let me know if i'm asking to many questions, i'll stop. And believe me, if you doubt, I really do trust all of you.
sorry for copying miss, but I had to put this on my blog. I LOVE IT
Date A Girl Who Reads by Rosemarie Urquico
Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.
Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.
She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.
Buy her another cup of coffee.
Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.
It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.
She has to give it a shot somehow.
Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.
Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.
Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.
If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.
You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.
You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.
Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.
Or better yet, date a girl who writes.
I can tell you that this is true, I know just from my own experience. And i would highly recommend that before you ever date anyone you should find out if they read.
Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.
Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.
She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.
Buy her another cup of coffee.
Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.
It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.
She has to give it a shot somehow.
Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.
Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.
Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.
If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.
You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.
You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.
Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.
Or better yet, date a girl who writes.
I can tell you that this is true, I know just from my own experience. And i would highly recommend that before you ever date anyone you should find out if they read.
It's that time again
I hate this time of year, people leave, school starts, and even though I go through this every year I stil stress every year that my friendships will be lost and that school might actually kill me this year. Some of the people I will miss a lot:
Mandi Call
Evan Kirby
Sidney Merryweather
Dustin Young
(maybe Hayden Anderson)
and many others.
You really are some of my favorite people on earth. I will miss you while you are gone.
Mandi Call
Evan Kirby
Sidney Merryweather
Dustin Young
(maybe Hayden Anderson)
and many others.
You really are some of my favorite people on earth. I will miss you while you are gone.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
I wish I could be more like
let's face it, he has an amazing outlook on life, I think we would all do better if we would just just chill out, and hang out with our best friend's and our girlfriend's once in a while, even if we should be doing something a little more serious.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Doctors
I don't really like going to the doctor. I've been putting it off for so long, and I thought I was doing better than I am, but evidently it is time to succumb to the fact that maybe I can't just shake this one off like other illnesses. I have my doubts in doctors, I feel like I should be able to overcome most things on my own. But when I start effecting other people, and my symptoms start effecting my ability to live a normal life, I think those are good signs that it's time to set down my pride and go in. WEDNESDAY here I come.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
One track mind
Turns out I have a one track mind.
And for the last 3 and a half months (as cheesy as it may sound) the only thing that has been on my mind is
and i think you know who you are.
sorry for the cheesiness, sometimes i just have to say what i feel (that's what this blog is for by the way) just look at the subtitle.
And for the last 3 and a half months (as cheesy as it may sound) the only thing that has been on my mind is
and i think you know who you are.
sorry for the cheesiness, sometimes i just have to say what i feel (that's what this blog is for by the way) just look at the subtitle.
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