My life

I wake up usually anywhere from 7-9

Get ready

Go to class

Come home

Eat dinner

Sit and watch tv or a movie, or I read

And I go to bed.

That's life monday-wednesday.

Thursday-sunday

I do nothing, absolutely nothing

sometimes I work (rarely)

My life is pretty boring.

Activities I could maybe use to try and beat boredom:

Fishing! (always a good choice)
Hiking (in the fall it's the best)
Going to the gym (I want to get fit)
Finding a new job (I need more money)

If any of you have any hobby suggestions I would love to hear them, I need to get out of this boring rut.

New Low

I can't remember a time when i've ever felt so low in my life. I have zero desire to do anything, most of the time I wake up and I wish that it could just be night again so I could keep sleeping, because if i'm sleeping I don't have to face the world.

I hate going to school, all of my classes seem to drag on, and I just don't fit. I have no friends on campus (and outside of campus I only have 1) I know most of you reading this are probably thinking, "So make new friends." I wish I could, I seriously do, I just have this fear/phobia of meeting people by myself. I have always made my friends through friends, so when i'm sitting at one friend total it's kinda hard to meet new people.

I can't stand my ward

the pool is closed (so there goes the final happy place I had in this world)

until winter comes around I don't have a whole lot going for me. And even then I have skiing which is good cause it gets me out doing something I love, but it's bad because it just makes me hate school even more.

I don't know what I want to do with my life. Nothing seems interesting at all. Like I said, can I just go to sleep and maybe not wake up for a while, Please?

no video

But the song of the day is:

EASY -rascal flatts w/natasha bedingfield

yeah.... so the video says it all

yes!!

I got an email from Sundance, I can't wait till winter. I wasn't sure about going back this winter but now I know that I need to go back, even if my only reason were, so that i can have some sort of a social life, it would be worth it.

Please bless that I can just push through this long, lonely looking autumn.

I've always wanted to.....

I've always wanted to be in the military. I can't though, and it's ok, cause i wouldn't trade giving my kidney to my dad for anything in the world. But i don't understand why having 1 kidney should hold me back. If i'm gladly willing to go to the front lines and die for my country, what does it matter if I only have one kidney. That one kidney works just as well as both of most people's. I just wish I could join.

Labor Day Weekdend

We went to the cabin, it was awesome to get out of the valley. All the memories I have of the valley these days just get me down, so the mountain air, the cool nights, the campfires, the fishing, the cold river, and just being away made it a nice getaway. It was a great trip.

On monday when i got back, Lance wanted to go four-wheeling, it was fantastic, we found the most intense trail we've ever done. I call it satan's boulder field. It was awesome.

Now.....it's time to go back to real life. Is it so terrible if the thought often crosses my mind that I don't think i can do this? Can't everyday be a break? Cause I hate real life right now.

music as an answer to prayers

You all know I love music and i relate to it. Well, sometimes it is an answer to my prayers. Like today, This song was in my head when I woke up, I don't think that it's just a coincidence.