The 2nd worst day of my life, 2nd only to the day my mission came to an end

The title says it all, today is the worst. I am miserable inside. Why? you ask, well let me tell you. I got my soul back today, and quite frankly i don't want it, i want the pg pool to continue with it's control of my life. I had to turn in my keys upon leaving work today. I'm not an emotional person, but with the way i was feeling as i walked away i realized that if i was emotional i would probably have been bawling.

To some of you this might seem rather drastic, and over dramatic. But i truly do love that place, i feel like the largest, and most influential part of my life is gone and i don't really know what to do with the void. I guess i do start work at the AF pool soon, so hopefully that helps but The pg pool is the best. I know i say that i look forward to winter so i can ski, but i think that i would give up the snow, and i would give up the skiing if it could be summer all the time, and i could make a good living.

Here are some of my favorite memories of the pool this year:

-Kirsten, "joe, fix me"

-Kirsten, "joe, can you fix me again"

-Finger mustaches

-checkers (it's coming back)

-mandi creepin on dustin

-is the slide ever going to get fixed?

-swim lessons

-THE GAMES!!

-the fixing of every mechanical part of the pool.

-Where's a hammer?

-Sidney, asking if i think it's a good idea if she guards on pain meds because she skined her fingers

-mullets

-Does a wild bear crap in the woods?

-having friends for the first time since the mish.

-"Joe!!! i see lightning!!"

-whistle

-whistle, whistle

-wwwwhhhhhhiiiiisssstlllleee, splash

- mandi's almost seizure because she thought she was getting shadow dropped.

-king carter

-Trevor

-living at the pool

-finding the boozin pit.

-there are many more, i just can't think of them now.

i love you pg pool, i can't wait till next year (only 209 days)

not much goin on

Well i was informed by the miss that i need to blog today, so i figure i will do so (seeing how she is my friend and she tends to have good ideas)

School, I hate it, that's all there is to it. How is it going by so fast? all of the sudden i have 2 mid terms and i don't feel like i've even been going to class long enough to learn enough material for even a half of an exam. Physical Science, yep i did it i put off taking it until the last day. You know, the day when you have to pay $5 just to take the test (stupid communistic testing center). It's tomorrow, and i still feel like i don't know a whole lot about any of the information. But i've done some reading and i know what's in the book so hopefully i do well.

My 2.5 hour monday night class, I couldn't handle it tonight, i wasn't feeling to well. I probably could have hacked it, and by probably, i mean i totally could have. But i just wasn't feelin it tonight. I found a really nice suit at the mall it's kinda a light tan, i liked it a lot. My brother got a suit for a dance, if i remember correctly high school dances were kinda lame. the day date was fun, but the dance, meh we could do without those.

I find it ironic, i did ballroom competitively for 8 years, and i hate dancing, how does that work? i dunno.

What's up with the weather these days, i mean come on. it's supposed to be fall, not freakin july. 90 degrees in september, that's a load of crap.

Also i found my dream ski's for 300 that's half off, but then again a season pass is 400, i don't know which thing i want. Oh the dilemas that happen for a 22 year old ski bum with no future.

Do you think i could possibly ever be ready for marriage, i don't, i mean come on look at the thought directly above this one. i am not ready to have children haha.

Also another important decision must be made, this weekend there is a mission reunion, but jameson and i also talked about camping. I love camping a lot. and i don't like church meetings but i would love to see some old friends. it's a pretty rough choice, luckily i have a few days.

Well those are the thoughts in my head, all at once, right now. welcome to my life haha

Boozin Pit, School, and other fun things

So.... things are looking better since that last post, and that's good because that last post was pretty emo.

School, it's school. what more can i say? i had my first for real assignment, i had to write a 5 page paper. I've known about it for weeks so when do you think that i began this wonderful paper? if you are guessing 10 hours before the midnight due time then ding ding ding we have a winner. I don't think it turned out to bad, but i think i could probably do better in the future. Which is why i got a filing cabinet and a white board. I'm taking over my time and getting some more control of my life!!

On Friday Jameson, Skylar and i went up to the boozin pit for a little overnight camping trip. It was pretty tight, we

heard elk, broke an axe, and ate some

big wieners covered in

J-dawgs sauce!!

also, smores with reeces

instead of normal chocolate are

delicious, thank you Jameson for introducing this new wonder into my life. Also the new mummy bag i got for my birthday, well i got to try it out and on it's maiden voyage i fell in

love. i slept in my hammock inside my 20 degree bag and i slept like a little baby. I have never slept so good camping in my life.

When we woke up there were some gnarly sunrises to be seen, i will share them with you, just remember that this is Jesus' artwork, we should all be appreciative and grateful to him for the wonderful state of Utah and it's beautiful mountains.

Maybe someday you all can come camping with us, at the boozin pit, it's pretty much the happiest place on earth, and yes i mean that it is even better than Disneyland and Cabela's.

i've had it, i'm done, i'm throwing in the towel

What is wrong with life? I mean..... i knew that there would be trials back when i signed up for this life long boot camp, but come on, what ever happened to 2 nephi 2:25? what ever happened to those blessings that supposedly come to those who serve missions? it's just one of those days i guess, i'm kinda sick of it all. I am tired of a school where no one cares about my existence, i'm tired of a hypocritical family that seems to think i need to change and that i'm just not good enough, i'm tired of friends who are on the same boat as my family and seem to think i'm their project, and mostly i'm just sick of of it all. I just need to get that out there. i used to be happy, and satisfied with my life, it's while i was on my mission, those were the days. No one told me that it was going to be a freefall down hill from there. No one told me that that was the summit. Sure there are little up turns on the slide down but overall it's seems to be a downward spiral.

not everyone is a trouble i've got 2 good friends, thank you jameson and the miss, you guys are awesome, you seem to slow down the fall for a little while, when we hang out.

well, i guess i'll sleep on it, and begin one more "wonderful" day tomorrow

it's been a while

Things are interesting, remember how i was super excited to be swim coach? Well......... i had to quit, i didn't really have a choice, i have school, work, and i wanted to keep a very good friend of mine. (even if this friend does make fun of my t.v. choices) I'm kinda bummed, i absolutely love swimming, and i love helping, but quite frankly the team was a joke, there was no control there, and the exercises were absurd, i don't think we ever even swam anything but freestyle. Oh well, hopefully some day i will be able to be a coach somewhere.

I have an obsession, I want to get in shape, and i can't think of much else. Even when i am in class, at work, reading, watching t.v., or pretty much anything i am constantly thinking of my dilemma. Some people would say that i don't have a dilemma but i do, it might be in my head but i still think it's fixable. to bad i'm not motivated enough, and i don't have anyone to help motivate me to do anything about it.

I have a new guilty pleasure, it's a t.v. show, i'm trying to finish season 1 before season 2 begins on Tuesday.

I was driving today by the walkers on state street and i saw like a thousand American flags, and it hit me, I love america, i'm truly devoted to our fine country. It's to bad that some things happen that shouldn't, but overall i would have to say that this is a pretty good place. In fact, i would say that this is the best place.

How come every time i get something good in my life it seems to be stripped away, or someone tries to strip it away? I mean, i've got some really good friends, and for some reason nobody wants us to be friends, or for us to even hang out with each other. Well it kinda sucks, i wish something could just be simple in my life. Like my sister, she is going to hawaii tomorrow (we'll miss her) but she found out today that she got a 600 dollar scholarship that she didn't even apply for, and that's not even the beginning, she gets some pretty good crap. Can i please get a break?

physical science tomorrow (can we just be upset?) i really don't want to go!! it is incredibly boring and i learned most of this stuff in 10th grade, oh well a good review never hurt anyone.

oh well, these are just some things on my mind right now

Fun Day

Today was pretty darn good, in fact this week has been pretty darn good. My major, yeah it's awesome, i'm taking quite a few classes and i'm pretty sure i'm not gonna have a ton of homework this semester.

I'm swim coach! i help kids swim, and i make new friends, (to bad they're in highschool) my friend the miss is the manager, she thinks i'm in a bad mood when i'm there, but i'm not, i just take swimming seriously.

today i was going to go camping, curtis had to bail, so now i'm not camping. I'm sitting at home watching reruns on tv and typing on my blog. instead of going camping i went to cal ranch, to bad it closed 5 minutes before my arrival, so instead i went to the pool and got hot chocolate on my way for curtis, the miss, and i. It was awesome, i just sat at the pool and talked with the amigos, and then the miss punched me, yes flat out sucker punched me in the face. it was fun, i love the pool, and i love my good friends, and i'm gaining a new found love for seatbelts (not really but i'm trying to do better at wearing mine)

oh and just so i don't forget

-2 pool hoodies

-2 pool sweat pants

-1 water aerobics c.d.

-1 box of spoons

-1 lawn chair

-1 vhs copy of the Jazz Singer

(i just can't forget these things, don't ask why)